I don't even know what to say. I'm thinking a lot of things and feeling a lot of things and I can't deal with this much, I'm not good at worrying.

My sister is in hospital. She was dizzy for a couple of days, it got worse, mom called ambulance yesterday morning. She's been there since then, the nurses and the only doctor mom got a hold of were all very nice. But nobody knows anything. The doctor is not a specialist, she's dealing with lung diseases and Silvija should be in neurology. They nearly missed it when her blood suger dropped to 1, if it wasn't for mom's pestering the doctor, she'd be in coma now. They have done a couple of x-rays and some other tests, but nobody would speak to mom and tell her exactly what is being done and what they're thinking.

Silvija can't move without vomiting, she can barely speak not to mention such extravagance as eating.

And I am here, I don't know what's happening and nobody knows anything and nobody does anything except everyone is really worried. And I am just here. Someone suggested that mom doesn't even tell me anything 'because there's not need to upset her'. Good my mother hasn't lost the ability to think for herself.

So, if you know a prayer, now would be a good time to use it.

I'll just sit here and worry a little more.